Dear Sean,
Woo! Done!
Finally! This has been the literal quarter from hell! I’m not even sure where
to begin with my complaints and where to direct my pent up frustration! Like,
when I finally turn in my unit plan, I’m driving to the top of Mt. Spokane, hiking
to the top, and yelling at the top of my lungs. I’m not sure for how long.
Maybe an eternity. Most likely until I pass out. I have never reflected on
myself so much until this quarter. Not that there’s anything wrong with
reflection, of course, but I’ve just never done it so much. I didn’t realize
how much I could actually reflect, you know? I reflected after papers and after
lessons and after teaching… it never stopped! I wanted a chance to breathe. I’m
not sure I would change any of it, though. This has been one of the hardest
quarters (y’all weren’t lying when you said not to take 408 and 493 together…)
of my college experience, but also one of the most rewarding. I’m finally
seeing the light at the end of the tunnel; I’m getting to the fun stuff, where it’s not just reading
and writing papers – very soon, I’ll get to apply all of that reading I’ve been
doing for a million years at this point. I’m going to be an amazing teacher, I
like to think, and I know it’s because of classes like 493 (and 408).
About being
a teacher: I’ve realized I’ve got a long way to go. I’m not ready (obviously,
considering this was the closest thing I’ve had to an education class so far…),
but, beyond knowing I’m not ready, I know that it won’t be very long now until
I will be. This class instilled a lot of confidence in me, making me excited
again to be a teacher. I was admittedly getting kind of burned out on just
taking my English classes… This class has also been helpful in preparing me to
take on a lot of work seemingly all at once; I’m a ridiculous procrastinator,
and it almost bit me in the butt several times this quarter. Uhhh… it could
still probably bite me if I don’t get on with finishing up my unit plan. But
this class, especially the unit plan, has helped me realize that I really do
need to slow my roll with the procrastination. There were a hundred times this
quarter where I could have easily been working on something that was due at the
end of the quarter e.g. my unit plan, but I chose to veg and watch nine episodes
of House of Cards (the new season was
like just days away and I had to play catch up) instead of doing what needed to
be done. Hopefully I’ve learned my lesson, because I’m pretty sure I’m
literally dying at this point; my body is running on Red Bull, coffee, and
these really tasty chips we sell at work now: they literally taste like corn
chips with spicy nacho cheese drenching them. Oh they’re so good.
As lazy as
I can be, I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished this quarter, with and without my
group mates. I think Ryan and I worked really well together for our
mini-lesson. The book talks were also nifty and RIDICULOUSLY handy. Seriously.
I bought, like, seven of the books people talked about and I want to buy more.
It was also really cool because I hadn’t read most of the books we chatted
about; not saying that I’ve read a lot of books, but it was cool that people
weren’t choosing the more “mainstream” books because I now know about a lot of
really cool books that would be nifty to use to teach to students. And as much
as I whined and moaned about my unit plan, that has also been ridiculously
useful. Before this class, I had never even seen an edTPA, let alone filled one
out. This, I’m sure, has prepared me for when I finally go onto my Masters
program. The unit plan has shown me just how lazy I can actually be – let’s not
lie, I’ve still got a couple lesson plans to write, I still have to print off
everything, I still have to whip a self eval, and make everything look pretty…
like, what am I doing with my life? I’m insane. Glutton for punishment, I
suppose. The unit plan has also shown me just hoooooow much reflection and how
much consideration goes into a lesson. It’s been a great eye opener, but also
incredibly stressful (again, that’s partially my fault…probably like all my
fault).
This class
has been fantastic. Like I said, it’s been incredibly useful, not just in the
actual course content (as far as our articles to read and such), but in the
books we read, and the activities we did. The mini-lessons were an excellent
way to dip your toes in the waters of teaching, and the book talks introduced
the class to several new novels that they could potentially work into their curriculum.
All in all, I’m incredibly happy this is one of the required courses for
English teachers. I sort of wish it was required for everybody, but that’s
asking a lot.
Sincerely,
Marah Nekich